An Open Letter to John

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John Milan sitting in a chair looking at a table of art supplies

Dear John,

I wanted to share how grateful I am for you and your life and all that you bring. I could always count on you to be on my side and encourage me to keep going. You were always willing to do the difficult things in hard times and help your family with whatever they needed. You have never complained or felt too big to do the small things no one else wanted to do. Your humility and support show your kind and loving heart.

I’m grateful for our years in marriage together full of beautiful memories and fulfilling adventures. Although it might not have been your first choice, you were always willing to go with me to the ends of the earth. You made me laugh when I wanted to cry and cheered me up whenever I felt down.

You were devoted to your children every single day, lovingly caring for them, and always showing up 100%. You cuddled them, played with them, and were everyone’s favorite dad on the street. I appreciate your dedication and unwavering active love you brought as a parent.

John sitting at a table with his three young girls

Our years of collaborating in art have meant the world to me, and I am grateful for the deep, profound, quiet moments of discovery and breakthrough we experienced together. You are an incredible artist, and your lovely soul shines through in every brushstroke or elegant line you create.

I’m thankful for the years we excelled as artists together and were able to see what we created go all over the world. I believe what we had was rare and precious and will always stand out as a profound chapter in my life, of healing and transformation.

John turns and smiles at the camera while painting a horse

As this chapter together closes and we move forward into the unknown apart, my heart is full of gratitude and also great anticipation of new levels of fulfillment and purpose for each of us. Although our marriage is ending, you will always be family to me, and as your friend and huge supporter and cheerleader, I will delight in watching you thrive and grow and become your very best self, becoming all that God intended for you.

I know that your greatest works of art are still in front of you, and your best days are just ahead. You are a kind and loving soul, and so many find comfort and acceptance in your presence. Thank you for who you are and all that you shared with me.

Love you,


92 comments


  • Darlene Nicoletti

    I am so sorry to hear this news. My heart is broken for the 2 of you that you’ve had to come to this point in your lives. I have also walked through this and know the heart ache that goes with it. But I give praises to God for the respect you still hold in your heart for John. And that even though your marriage relationship has cone to its end, that the 2 of you will still remain friends. Because that’s the most important part in this. As you have children and grandchildren together. I wish the best for you and will pray for both if you in your new journeys apart. May God lead you and direct you in every direction you turn, and may you always feel His presence. God bless you both. 💕


  • Janina

    Endings can be messy and challenging, especially after so many years together and all that you and John have been through together. I wish for you both and your whole family – healing of the raw emotions that may remain in your hearts.
    Endings are also new beginnings. As you both move forward may you each find your new groove, a new path that fulfills you, and brings happiness and peace.
    Many thanks to you both for all that you have contributed to the art world and to us as individuals.


  • Robin Sisemore

    My heart goes out to you all. ❤️


  • olga spathis

    I am so sad that even with a good person the way of the artist isn’t enough. Inspiration is so very important and holding back isn’t enough to remain productive. If you can’t get inspiration it devastating. Since August I have had the artist sucked out of me and your path is the right one. It doesn’t mean it will be like that forever and what is marriage? Honestly, it should be abolished bc at its present state it stifles women. It’s great for men- but, absolutely NOT for women. I have seen more women die this year married than unmarried and death of an artist in my book is worse than death of the flesh. I wish you both inspiration, adventure and health! At the end of the day if you have that you can really be great friends. I hope my separation is as amicable as yours.


  • Diane

    Dear Elli and John, Your life together and your art have been an inspiration to me ever since I discovered your work several years ago. As an outsider who could not possibly understand (so please forgive me for being so bold), I just hope you will reconsider after all your years together as a family – and I pray that you are directed by God in all that you do. Once you separate, it is hard to get back what you had, if you choose to do so. Once you’ve rooted and grown a family together, you will find that there is no other place to go. That is a hard fact to learn, but it’s true.

    As someone who has had to learn the hard way, I say: Don’t give up what you worked so hard for – I’m sure there were times earlier on that made you want to leave, but you didn’t… and now, if you stay, you will have the chance to grow old together, your feelings will change and you won’t feel the same as you do today. Things will change. Pray and have faith; share the rest of your lives as you promised in the beginning. That matters to God – he brought you together and made a union. Staying together is worth it – you will be glad you stuck it out. May God bless you and your family during this time, and may He guide your steps.


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