An Open Letter to John

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John Milan sitting in a chair looking at a table of art supplies

Dear John,

I wanted to share how grateful I am for you and your life and all that you bring. I could always count on you to be on my side and encourage me to keep going. You were always willing to do the difficult things in hard times and help your family with whatever they needed. You have never complained or felt too big to do the small things no one else wanted to do. Your humility and support show your kind and loving heart.

I’m grateful for our years in marriage together full of beautiful memories and fulfilling adventures. Although it might not have been your first choice, you were always willing to go with me to the ends of the earth. You made me laugh when I wanted to cry and cheered me up whenever I felt down.

You were devoted to your children every single day, lovingly caring for them, and always showing up 100%. You cuddled them, played with them, and were everyone’s favorite dad on the street. I appreciate your dedication and unwavering active love you brought as a parent.

John sitting at a table with his three young girls

Our years of collaborating in art have meant the world to me, and I am grateful for the deep, profound, quiet moments of discovery and breakthrough we experienced together. You are an incredible artist, and your lovely soul shines through in every brushstroke or elegant line you create.

I’m thankful for the years we excelled as artists together and were able to see what we created go all over the world. I believe what we had was rare and precious and will always stand out as a profound chapter in my life, of healing and transformation.

John turns and smiles at the camera while painting a horse

As this chapter together closes and we move forward into the unknown apart, my heart is full of gratitude and also great anticipation of new levels of fulfillment and purpose for each of us. Although our marriage is ending, you will always be family to me, and as your friend and huge supporter and cheerleader, I will delight in watching you thrive and grow and become your very best self, becoming all that God intended for you.

I know that your greatest works of art are still in front of you, and your best days are just ahead. You are a kind and loving soul, and so many find comfort and acceptance in your presence. Thank you for who you are and all that you shared with me.

Love you,


92 comments


  • Jolanda

    What a beautiful reflection on your lives. Wish you both strength and hapiness to work through this difficult times.
    Take care


  • Rachael Bahl

    I am so sorry to hear this news. I find you both very inspiring and although different, a seemingly good team. Also u obviously still care and respect each other immensely. I know marriage is incredibly hard, impossible sometimes apart from the Lord. It is hard to understand why you both have come to this decision, is it something recent or been a struggle for years? I am so sorry for this news and praying for you both!


  • Maria

    Your achievements and adventures together are imprinted in the canvas of existence for eternity. No matter what changes you experience, what you have given to the world is truly indescribable. Sometimes my mind feels way too small to contain the enormous joy that your entire family has given me. I still have to pinch myself to believe what beauty I create because you make people believe in themselves. I had watched the outstanding artist season one so many times. I felt a part of your family and I felt your deep connection to each other, the sense of adventure and love for life. When I read the announcement, I felt like the world I know through you had come undone. It brought tears to my eyes, but I see the deep unshakable beauty and love that nothing can change. It can only be transformed.


  • Gillian Burfield

    Elli for the last year and a half you, John and your amazing family have become part of my life as a mastery student and now a SOPA member. Although I have not met you in person I feel like you have become part of my family. I have so much to be grateful to you for in my artist journey which has enabled me to recover parts of myself that I had lost. I was so sad to hear your news. I know you and John have sought Gods guidance and have not reached this point lightly. The beautiful letter you shared shows your love and respect and that although you now travel separate paths you still wish the very best future for each other and support each other in your new separate journeys. I believe God has a plan for each of you and wish you both all the best for the years ahead.


  • Glenda

    Prayers for you both are going up as well as for your children. No matter how amicable you try to be, this is painful. I hope and pray that people will be kind to you both.


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